It is very difficult for me to talk about my present situation. It is hard for me to move on with my life after having lost my oldest son. I still cannot believe that I have lost my son. I have no energy to do anything. I was very depressed a couple of days after the death of my son. My relatives and group members came to my house to take care of me. They told me not to be depressed and that whatever happens to us, we cannot change, and therefore I should move on with my life.
BUT how can I move on? Why is this happening to me? Why does all bad things come to me?
What is wrong with me? Why can’t I have a break?
I think a lot. The members of my WAWCAS group and my neighbors suggested that I to look after my son’s carrier. Seeing how my state of mind is affecting my younger son, I have decided to move on, even though I was helpless and broke down.
During this hard time, my group has decided to grant me a loan to start up a new business. I felt relieved getting the loan of Rs. 15,000. Immediately after receiving the money, I bought a medium size buffalo.
How can I make this better? The buffalo is healthy, as it got all the required vaccines. We have been taking very good care of our buffalo. Every day I have been to the nearby jungle to cut fresh grass for my buffalo. So far, everything seems good with my new business. I am sure that the additional business will help me to generate more income to my family, and this will definitely help us with our daily expenses and the education of my son in the future.
Talking about the other aspect of the WAWCAS program, I learned a lot through fun and discussion. The seven days of training and IBT that we received was very good and fruitful. I have never felt tired or bored during the training. Another inspiring exercise that I like the most was PCA, SWOT, PSRP and dairy writing. The PCA exercise helped me to control unnecessary expenses, the SWOT exercise helped me to change my bad behaviors and increase the good behaviors, and I learned to grab the opportunities at the right time and deal with the hurdles that comes in our lives while carrying out our business. The dairy writing exercise was also very fruitful to me, as I can express all my feelings and also record all the income and expenses in the diary.
During the lockdown Sajan called me and asked me how I was doing, which I liked very much. I feel very blessed to be a part of the WAWCAS group. WAWCAS really helped me to change my life socially and financially. Talking about my journey, it did not go quite as I expected, because COVID-19 hit us very hard, and on top of that I also lost my beloved son. But Sajan and my neighbors have always motivated me to move on with my life, and I have also learned to face and deal with the difficulties in life.
I am very grateful to the Slisha Organization for showing me the right path and for supporting me. Without the help of the Slisha Organization and the support from Sajan, I would never have come to this point of my life.
So once again, thank you for your help and support. Since this will be my last blog, I would like to thank all of you who have followed my 16 months of ups and downs on the WAWCAS journey.
Dear Readers
Now it is time for me to say goodbye on the behalf of Krishna Maya Mahat and myself. I am sure that you have all enjoyed reading about Krishna Maya Mahat’s ups and downs on her journey. Due to the Covid-19 situation and the death of her son, her journey was quite tough, but she is a very strong and hardworking woman. Despite of the Corona situation and the loss of her son, she has decided to move on with her life, and I am pretty sure that she will be doing very well in future. I see a lot of confidence, learning and positive changes within her. Thank you!!
Yours Sincerely
Sajan Shakya
LPL, Tanahun